Power of Positive Thinking
Mood:  on fire
Today I am trying to use the power of positive thinking to facilitate my weight loss. I will do it. I am doing it. I will lose 9 pounds before Christmas. I will make a difference in my life. I will chose to be successful. I am going to be fired up. Today I am motivational speaker. As far as weight control goes it has worked much better than forgetting about Mr. Darcy. I pray to God that he take Mr. Darcy out of my heart but I don't think God is fooled. He knows that I don't really want to let go yet. So maybe I just let it be. I'll apply all the normal things you do to avoid the person you love that doesn't love you back. Don't email, don't call, don't talk, don't let yourself THINK about him. The problem is that we work together, on the same project. Ugh. Good news is that he does not work in the same office. Hopefully, he doesn't know how I feel. But I'm not good at hiding things. In the meantime, I'll lose the weight then the next time I see him, He can realize what he's missed out on.

Going Public
Mood:  not sure
This is my first public discussion. I started a private journal about a year ago. Today I sit here negative 18 pounds from a year ago. Here I get real and I get tough. But it won't be just about my weight because there are too many factors in weight control. So we'll start out simple
Goal - that hasn't been entirely defined. It used to be what I weighed when I graduated high school. That is only about 10 pounds away. Now that I have a whole lot more confidence in myself I realize that I can do better. Maybe even the "ideal" weight for my height. That is 30 pounds away.
Motivation - Where do I start? How about with I hate being fat? You'll see I am big on I hate lists. I really want to get Mr. Darcy (fictional name) to notice me even if he isn't my husband. It's a little immature yes, but totally true.